Monday, December 12, 2005
Our sense of dignity.
Today I spent a lot of time thinking of how important it is to preserve one's dignity. My thoughts are based on three instances.
1 -the picture alonside is my grandmother who got her set of new dentures.. finally! - we had to let the last set be literally pulled out of her mouth and then hidden- she didn't want to let them go - but they were sitting badly and causing her ulcers. The dental department has been working on her new set of dentures for the last month and when they did her final trial and they fit -everyone in dental clapped! Why didn't she want to part with her false teeth even though they were causing her pain - dignity.
2- Chemo and hair - If you surf the blogs on cancer and chemo -hair falling out is something that really upsets people (maybe women more than men). I don't think it's affected me all that much, but even an old teacher of mine who had Hodgkins said that it hurt her a lot to loose her hair. Though hair falling out means that your Chemo is working (chemo acts on rapidly dividing cells)- but still it can upset you and people try wigs or false hair- dignity.
3 - I refuse to use a bed pan - When ever I'm admitted for chemo and even after my thoracotomy in the ICU, using a bedpan to pee - even if I was assured privacy was something I just could not do. That's funny - even though when you have a chest tube in your thorax and walking about in the ICU is not the best thing, or if your hand moves and the IV cannula slips when running chemo you can burn your hand - something refuses to let me be that vulnerable. - dignity.
Sick man lookin’ for the doctor’s cure
Lookin’ at his hands for the lines that were
And into every masterpiece of literature
So many roads, so much at stake
So many dead ends, I’m at the edge of the lake
Sometimes I wonder what it’s gonna take
To find dignity
Bob Dylan - Dignity
Tomorrow I see my 5 month baby on scan - today the antenatal checkup went off well, except a painful TT injection.
There is so much rain going on - I guess this state is having more than it's fair share......... "fair share" - ???